Drug Diary – Tuesday 19th December 2006
Third part of a nearly seven year diary showing some insight into the daily life of an addict. My ex partners name has been changed for privacy reasons. This part is dated 19/12/2006. It’s been quite a difficult journey to pluck up the courage to publish this. Please feel free to comment.
6 days to go until Christmas and me and keiron still haven’t been able to even send anyone a card. all the money we get goes on smack (heroin) and i hate it. this will be my first Christmas on drugs. keiron is still hiding from the police. they have been at the door twice today. i thought they’d never go away. we both had to walk about 10miles today just for a tenner (£10) to score a bag between the two of us. it wasn’t even worth it. by the time we got home i was already sick about 20 times. its the shivers i hate the most. sometimes I’m to hot then I’m too cold. the wet clothes don’t help. I’m going to have to hide some money from keiron on Friday or we’ll be starving on Christmas day and most probably rattling (withdrawals). well keiron won’t as he gets meth (methadone) everyday at the chemist. I’m really starting to hate him. he beat me yesterday and burst my nose and chipped my front tooth. and all because i wouldn’t give him money to get drunk again. we only had £5 and i wanted it for food. the electricity is about to go off as well and we haven’t had any gas to heat the house for months. it’s freezing. i hate my life but i can’t see a way out.