Just to be with You

I look into your eyes and I see the world. You are everything to me. I stand before you bearing my heart and soul. I want to hold you and I can’t. I can’t get close enough to you. You keep me at a distance, and I understand. I want to lie my head on your chest and hear your heart beat. You push me away but I can’t let you go. All I want is to be with you, I cannot be without you. You are the air that I breathe, without you I cannot live. I feel so lost and alone. I want you to hold me and tell me you love me. But I know that will not happen. I long for the day that you will come back to me. My heart is broken and you are the only one that can fix it. You are the only one that can take my pain away. The pain that I feel is unbearable. I walk around with no sense of purpose or any meaning to my life. Without you I am nothing. I feel nothing. I cannot get you out of my mind, my thoughts consume me. I am drowning, completely overwhelmed with thoughts of you. I am sinking like in quicksand, the more I try the farther I sink. My mind will not let go of you. I dream of you every night, I dream that we are together again and you love me. You are the first thought in my head when I wake up. My body is drawn to you; I just want to go to you. I would do anything to be with you, anything that you asked of me. I would get on my knees and beg if I had to. That is how much I love you. I want to be in your arms, in your heart, and on your mind. I need to know that you love me, before I go insane.