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I don’t know if he understood the code or not. I made it for him and no one else

Only one who made my heart  hurt when he never came around. I couldnt involve myself too much in this situation because he was not mine to begin with. And now, I feared that he would turn from me when he read this.  But,  in my desperate attempt to make my feelings known so that he did not feel unloved, I wrote this.

No one knows who he is and no one would ever understand how close I feel to him. A friend, yes a special person who has the close semblance to a friend but there is more–there is no denying this. I cannot weep, my eyes are dry. I cannot speak, my tongue has not the words to describe. And maybe he is gone for good or for awhile, I do not know.

So, I am here…as I am supposed to be and yes, I feel guilty. But there is a song which still plays inside my head and I think It will play forever.

A silly song I heard on the radio. It plays sometimes when we talk and it reminds me of him when he is away.

No matter what others believe…you know I speak of you and your devotion to our friendship.

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