Seven Days

August 4, 2012 by Mom the Muse  
Published in Motherhood

In seven days, my firstborn leaves for college.

It is amazing how quickly 18 years can pass.  It wasn’t all that long ago that I was registering for college, a timid, painfully shy girl, stunning to look at, but completely unaware of it.  I now see myself remade in my daughter, and how I wish I could take away the insecurity that I know she is feeling.  I know because I felt it too.

I am trying to stay positive and not to worry, because I made it through just fine, and although growing can be uncomfortable, it has to be done.  If I could turn back time, you know that I would, but I can’t.  Time marches on and, like a steamroller, it flattens me when I try to object to its passage.

I have no idea what her first days away from home will be like, so I pray for her safety, her peace of mind and that she be filled with joy and anticipation.  Although I will always be her mother, the most active phase of parenting is over for me…in just one week.  

As I begin this new phase of parenting from a distance, I trust that the memories, some carefully crafted and some totally spontaneous, will keep us close.  I will likely overstep my bounds a time or two, and text too often or call too often or maybe even visit too often, but we will eventually find our stride. 

I don’t know much, but I do know that I will always love her and pray for her continually.  When that is all I can do, thankfully, that is all I need to do.  I have this promise: “All your children will be taught by the Lord, and great will be their peace” (Isaiah 54:13) and I intend to cling to it with all that I am.  As she leaves my nest, she will “go out in joy and be led forth in peace” (Isaiah 55:12).

But for now, I treasure these seven days, for I know how quickly they will surely pass.

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One Response to “Seven Days”
  1. elee Says:

    Lovely! very nice !

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